HAD COMPANY THIS WEEKEND...

Oh and today is my birthday, I am 38 again...
Yay me.

YES MAMMOGRAMS ARE IMPORTANT....


I get it O.K.!
I had one last Wednesday. Then on Thursday I get a call that they needed me to come back in. O.K. so I went back in yesterday. They Xeroxed me again and put me in a little waiting room. Whew glad that's over. Then the tech pokes her head around the corner and says the radiologist wants another view and to step back in to the torture chamber, err, I mean the imaging room. So they squash it 3 more ways that I didn't even know was humanly possible. Then I was sent back to sit some more. Well long story short (if that is ever possible with me) I have to go back Thursday for a biopsy. Do they not understand that I just did a 5K on Saturday for breast cancer, therefor I am immune.... O.K. well, it was worth a shot. I don't think it's anything and I'm sure when they get the results back they will tell me the same. Oh and it doesn't help that the Hubby is out of the country until Monday. I do O.K. when he is out of town but I wouldn't mind if he gave me a call.

TAKING CARE OF ME....


For once I am taking care of me. I went for my annual physical today which I am ashamed to admit I haven't been to since 07. The Dr. was amazed to find that my BP is a LOT lower than it was in the past thanks to my meds. That I am in fact wearing glasses and that I weigh exactly (right down to the ".4") what I did the last time I was there 2 YEARS AGO!... She did refer me to a surgeon to have a cancer screen and have him remove a mole on my face (ugh of all places). That's cool, whatever. I also have to get my boobs squashed and mangled in a zerox machine, what fun! But over all my health so far looks awesome. Yeah and my blood tests will take a couple of weeks.
Then my friends we will celebrate!

MOTIVATION???


What motivation, I have none. Is it just me or does anyone out there feel like a steaming pile-o-poo? I mean it takes all the energy I have just to get up in the morning. It is unreal. What's worse is going to bed at 7:30 and sleeping until morning and waking up tired. That is so very wrong. I am hoping that this will pass soon because I am so tired of being tired. We had company this last weekend and more company on St. Patty's Day but it wasn't too much or too many. It was really nice actually. I just feel drained. Kinda strange since I am more of a high energy kinda person.
Hmmm....

Lack of Enthusiasm & Random BS...

Usually I am full of energy and life, but for some reason, I am exhausted. All this week I have come to work and done very little. Oh, I have a lot to do and more is piling up by the day. I think I am having burnout.
My daughter forgot her books this morning and I was well on my way in to work. I turned around, headed back home cuss-texted her, got her stuff and headed to her school. I called the boss to let him know I was going to be late. I was 40 minutes late, everyone was here and it was still ME who unlocked the front door. What if I hadn't come to work at all? Oh and yesterday I started a fire in the kitchen here at work. *sigh* I thought the toaster oven was off... oops... We were able to put it out but it stunk up the place. Sorry.
I don't know if you all know this but I play The Sims 2. I have been playing it since 2004. Well, my game crashed and I have lost 5 years worth of work *sigh* that might be a part of my moods lately. We even restored the computer to an earlier date, but all was lost.
My son got a phone call the other day from the football coach at the high school. He has been recruited for the JV team for his freshman year. How cool is that? He has to go to weight training for the next few months. He is really liking it. I am loving it for him.
I hope y'all are having a much better week.

THIS POST IS ONE OF THOSE MEMEME THINGS THAT I SHAMELESSLY STOLE FROM KAT...

1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? Closed.
2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? Yes.
3. Have you ever 'done it' in a hotel room? Yes!
4. Have you ever stolen a street sign before? Yes.
5. Do you like to use post-it notes? Yes, I use them every day.
6. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees? A big bear.
7. Do you always smile for pictures? Most of the time.
8. What is your biggest pet peeve? Grown ups picking their noses & anyone spitting.
9. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? In.
10. Do you ever count your steps when you walk? No, why?
11. Have you ever peed in the woods? Only when camping.
12. Do you ever jump up and down to make your privates bounce? Ummm...NO!
13. Do you chew your pens and pencils? No.
14. How many people have you slept with this week? Just my hubby and that is an every day event.
15. Do you like popcorn from those big tins? Very much.
16. What is your "Song of the week"? None.
17. Is it okay for guys to wear pink? Yes, absolutely.
18. Do you still watch cartoons? I love cartoons.
19. What’s your favorite scary movie? Nightmare on Elm Street. (yeah I'm old, so what?!)
20. Your prom? Do you remember about it? Yes, I wore my aunt's prom gown and it was almost 30 years later.
21. Where would you bury treasure if you had some? I have no clue.
22. What color is your cell phone? Silver.
23. Were you a boy/girl scout? No, they didn't have that where I am from so I was in 4H.
24. What is your biggest food weakness? Potato Chips (State Line to be exact).
25. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? I totally would have way back before kids.
26. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? About 2 weeks ago to my brothers.
27. Can you change the oil on a car? Yes.
28. Ever gotten a speeding ticket? No.
29. Ran out of gas? No.
30. Favorite kind of sandwich? Hot egg salad.
31. Best thing to eat for breakfast? Patacones with cheese.
32. What is your usual bedtime? 9:00-9:30.
33. Are you lazy? Sometimes.
34. Do you read the newspaper? Online.
35. How many languages can you speak? I speak one, English, I understand Spanish and can cuss in Spanish if that counts.
36. Do you have any magazine subscriptions? No.
37. Which are better Legos or Lincoln Logs? Legos, hands down!
38. Are you stubborn? Only when it truly matters.
39. Who is better...Leno or Letterman? I am never up that late.
40. Watch an opera live? Yes.
41. Afraid of heights? A little bit.
42. Dance in the shower? No, but when I was younger and single I used to drink beer in the shower... TMI?
43. Dance in the car? No.
44. Ever used a gun? Yes.
45. Explain what ended your last relationship? That was 20 years ago, I don't even remember who I was dating much less how it ended.
46. Are you any good at math? Not in the slightest.
47. Do you ever leave messages on peoples answering machines? Most of the time.
48. Who did you lose your CONCERT virginity to? Ozzy Osbourne.
49. Any plans for Friday night? Yes.
50. Do you re-use towels after you shower? Sometimes.
51. Some things you are excited about? My friend Tysgirl had her baby and I am so overly excited for her.
52. Describe your keychain(s)? I have a picture of a mola encase in plastic that says Panama.
53. Do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed? Open part way so we can hear if the kids are up and about.

IS IT MONDAY AGAIN???


I swear I can't believe it's Monday already. I took Friday off and stayed home out of the rain. Best decision I have made in a long time. They didn't really need me here at work and even the ducks were unhappy at the amount of rain we were getting. I am so glad we got the rain, we really needed it. I don't mind having it rain steady and nicely. It was just NASTY on Friday thanks to Fay...
I was able to finish up all the laundry and clean a bit. It felt so good to not have anything left to do around the house. Saturday we went to a fund raiser to raise money for a friend of the family who is 14 and was diagnosed with Leukemia. If you head over to my Flickr you can see pics of my son getting his head shaved for the cause. He was the first one in the chair. My husband did it too. Which I don't need to tell you was completely unnecessary since he is already bald. But of course it was $10.00 to the cause. No! There was no way in Hell I was shaving my head, um, nope! They had a blood drive and I tried to donate but they wouldn't take it because I lived in Europe in 1996. WTF! The Red Cross takes my blood every chance they can get. They are blood suckers!!! Whatever! At least I tried.
Sunday I went with my GF to see the Pineapple Express. Um yeah, it's a stoner movie and I love stoner humor but DAMN this was violent!!! We went to the 2:00 because it was cheaper. That was about it. Hope your weekends were eventful and fun.

Oh and I also wanted to thank all of you who supported me when I was feeling down last week.

LIKE MOST PEOPLE...


Today is my Friday!
YaY!
If you haven't had a chance, please take a look at some of my paintings;
here
here
& here...

Mememememememe.....

Stolen unceremoniously from Tysgirl, Kat & Emotional Mullet...

I am : writing this meme, duh!
I think : all the time, my brain never ever shuts off.
I know : more than I care to sometimes.
I want : a long Caribbean vacation.
I have : good kids and a wonderful husband.
I wish : the world for my kids.
I hate : hate!
I miss : my nephew, everyday.
I fear : that people won't remember me when I'm gone.
I feel : like simming.
I hear : my daughter talking to the cat.
I smell : popcorn
I crave : some of that popcorn.
I search : for answers to questions that don't have answers.
I wonder : what the future holds.
I regret : not not being able to talk my nephew in to moving to Savannah.
I love : my life.
I ache : all over.
I am not : stupid.
I believe : life is not a dress rehearsal, live it like your the star of the show.
I dance : like I am seizing.
I sing : in my car..... alone.
I cry : too often.
I don’t always : take care of myself like I should.
I fight : very infrequently, I don't like confrontation.
I write : because it feels good.
I win : what?! No I don't!
I lose : weight but it keeps finding me.
I never : thought I would ever have kids, let alone like them...
I always : treat other how I want to be treated.
I confuse : um...nothing.
I can usually be found : checking others blogs or surfing Flickr.
I am scared : that I have not been stressing to my children how important furthering their education REALLY is.
I need : my family.
I am happy : when those around me are happy.
I imagine : life couldn't get any better than this.

The End.

BIG MAMA DAY!!!

Hooray! It's finally here, the day of all days!

Big Mama Day!

Have fun celebrating me today for calories don't count today!

Happy Birthday to me and now I shall go eat cake for breakfast!

Hope you all have an awesome one, just for me!

AS WE ALL KNOW BY NOW....

Big Mama Day is on Sunday but I have to share that I came home today and I got so excited I started to cry. No, a good kinda cry. A very sweet, wonderful and caring sweetheart of a person actually sent me yes ME a birthday wish!!!

BY SNAIL MAIL!!!

I was so excited.

See if you can guess who this someone might be...

This one will give it away for sure! "Q" You so totally rock and you made my whole day!

Thank you so much for your generous & kind heart. MWAH!

I CAN'T SLEEP...

I haven't slept in 3 days.
I am tired (I think I'm overtired). I don't have anything bothering me. I'm not worried about anything that I can think of. The temperature in the house is just right. What on earth is going on? Just as I start to doze off I wake right up like it's time to get up and go. That's it, I am going to take some sleeping pills tonight and try to get some much needed sleep. I don't like to take those because I can't wake up the next day. Well, it's getting to the point where it would be no different between NOT sleeping and trying to wake up from sleeping pills...
I'm pooped.
I think I should consult The Q, she knows all too well about this!

Only one word answers.

1.Where is your mobile phone? Counter
2.Your significant other? Adorable
3.Your hair? Blonde
4.Your mother? Sweet
5.Your father? Loving
6.Your favourite thing? Kids
7.Your dream last night? Disturbing
8.Your favorite drink? Water
9.Your dream/goal? Wealthy
10.The room you’re in? Spare
11.Your ex? Who?
12.Your fear? Kidnappers
13.Where do you want to be in 6 years? Here
14.Where were you last night? Here
15.What you’re not? Obnoxious
16.Muffins? Blueberry
17.One of your wish list items? Pool
18.Where you grew up? Vermont
19.The last thing you did? Sneezed
20.What are you wearing? Socks
21.Your TV? Off
22.Your pets? Many
23.Your computer? Lifeline
24.Your life? Good
25.Your mood? Mellow
26.Missing someone? Aunt
27.Your car? Black
28.Something you’re not wearing? Bra
29.Favorite Store? Target
30.Your summer? Short
31.Like someone? Sure
32.Your favorite color? Orange
33.When is the last time you laughed? Recently
34.Last time you cried? Lunchtime
35.Who will/would re-post this? Nobody

O.K. this was stolen unceremoniously from my favoritest Purple Twinkie...

HAD ANOTHER BAD DREAM LAST NIGHT...

I had a dream/nightmare last night that I was suffocating. In reality I was probably snoring really hard. Not that I ever snore, no, not me...

Other than that, I got nothing for you right now.

Hope you all have a happy Wednesday.

HEY...

I'm still here. I have been busy this last week, trying to clean up the "mess" that is my job. I hate the end of the year and the end of the month all rolled in to one. It's rediculous!

My mother in law is here and I just adore her. Unfortunately she has to leave early because Grandma (her mother) has come down with pneumonia. G-ma lives with mom and now mom is going home to take care of her. I don't blame her for cutting her time short. I do wish she could just move in with us at some point.

I have been having nightmares for a couple of weeks now and I am so tired. I just want blissful happy sleep. No guns, no one getting hurt, you know what I mean? I am usually the one having to defend someone. I think I have shot a total of 21 people in my dreams/nightmares (if I'm not mistaken). In self defense of course. So strange. Oh well, wish me luck and send me some good karma, I'm needing it.

FIRST POST.....

Well.... It's 2008 and this is my first post.

I don't feel very New Years"ie". This year I decided that there is very little that I want to change about myself. I know that sounds conceited and maybe a little odd.... But I have worked for over 40 years to get me this way. I kinda like the way that I have turned out. I'm not saying there is no room for improvement. There totally is, but this year I am going to accept myself and love me for me. I know that I have a good heart that is way too big sometimes. I have always lived by the "Golden Rule" Do unto others as you would have done unto you. To me that means to speak to others as you would want them to speak to you. Treat others with respect. I don't have to like everyone but I feel the undying need to be at peace with myself.....so I treat them with respect even if I get none in return. I need nothing from anyone one else, I have to live with myself and my conscience. I am a very tolerant person and some people think I am very much like a doormat. I beg to differ. I don't do anything that I don't want to do. I choose to give and love and just be myself. If people like me great! if they don't, oh well, they have lost out. I try to stand up for the people that can't stand up for themselves. So I guess what this all boils down to is..... I like me and I want to keep me just the way I am...

HOLIDAY STUFF....

A MeMe from a very awesome chick A.K.A Tysgirl

1. Wrapping paper or gift bag? Wrapping paper/Gift bags, it matters not...

2. Real tree or artificial? Totally fake...

3. When do you put up your tree? Sometime during the first week of December...

4. When do you take down your tree? New Years Day...

5. Do you like eggnog? No, yuck!!!

6. Favorite gift as a kid? The Flying Saucer!!!

7. Do you have a nativity scene? No...

8. Hardest person to buy for? My husband...

9. Easiest person to buy for? My daughter...

10. The worst Christmas present you ever got? A brick. My grandmother (may she rest in peace) was able to afford roller skates for my brothers but couldn't afford mine, but she wanted me to have something heavy to feel like their skates... so I got the brick with an I.O.U. Oh and just for the record I never did get the skates...

11. Mail or email Christmas cards? Totally snail mail...

12. Favorite Christmas movie? Rudolph The Red Nosed Reindeer...

13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? Whenever the mood strikes, usually in October...

14. Recycled a Christmas present? No, but I have given some away as in,"here you may like this, I got it for Christmas and it just isn't for me..."

15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? My mom's home made coffee cake...

16. White or colored lights? White non-blinking...

17. Favorite Christmas song? Silent Night

18. Can you name all of Santa’s reindeer? Yep!

19. Travelling or staying home? There's no place like home...

20. Angel or star on top of the tree? A star with a pic of my 2 kids (angels) on it...

21. What do you love most about the holidays? Seeing the children's faces when they see the tree first thing in the morning...

I AM SO EXCITED!!!

I just had to share. I have been wanting to volunteer this Christmas doing something worthwhile. Well, on the news last night there was a piece about the women's safe shelter. They need everything! This is the place where battered women and children go to seek help and survive. SOooooo I called today and adopted a family. They are going to get back with me to give me my family so I can have a list of what they need and want.

I am so excited!!!

I (thank God) have never been in a situation like theirs. The thought of these kids getting something/anything Christmas morning just makes me all giggly. As a mom, I know that seeing your child open a gift with a huge smile on their face is the BEST GIFT EVER. O.K. I know I am making it all about me, but it makes ME happy.

I think this will be a great experience for the kids to give instead of get this year.

(Yes, not to worry they are getting alot of stuff....)

Just so all of you know, I have been testing out the new lens that Tysgirl got for me but I have not been able to get on my computer at home. My son has a huge project due the end of this week and I don't DARE even go in to the computer room. So, as soon as I can, I will post my lame attempts at the new lens.

OMG!!!!

Can I just say...OH-EM-GEE!!!!

Now as we all know this Saturday is Tysgirl's birthday so what does she do??? SHE SENT ME A GIFT!!! WTF? I am so glad she did, it totally rocks!

So, I hear a knock at the door, hmmm... who could it be I wonder?

I answered the door and it was the UPS guy.

(I didn't take his picture that would have been awkward!)

Wow, now what is this???

A package FOR ME??? Oh I have to get something to open it with...

I opened it verrry carefully....

Inside, there was a very sweet handwritten note...

....and do you want to know what she sent to me???

Yes folks, she sent me a new lens for my camera!!!

Doesn't it just bring a tear to your eye?

It's beautiful!

This calls for a brand new camera bag!!!

(I know what I'm getting this weekend!)

OHHHHhhhhhhhhh!!!! That's not all!

She also sent me "chocolate covered orgasm" in a box.

Well, I have heard them described as thus. Check this out!

Can I just tell you.....

SHE'S RIGHT!

This so totally rocks and I so wasn't expecting it. I plan on having a great time getting to know my camera again this coming weekend. Be prepared for some fun photos soon!

All thanks to my bud Tysgirl! SHE ROCKS!

(Oh and her hubby rocks too!)

TFTD...

*caution major rambling rant ahead*

Have you ever thought about what makes people tick? I mean have you ever thought about what makes people do the things they do? I don't watch television. I know that sounds really strange in our society. I like it, but I just can't sit still very long. I can't sit through a movie or even a one hour program. I like the Discovery Health station. I like Comedy Central and the Food Network. I just can't stand to really sit and stay engaged to it. I have to keep my hands busy. A lot of times I will have the tele on while I'm cleaning so I can hear it. I am not a big music buff either. I love music, but I can't be bothered to learn who is singing and when it was released or any of that mess. I can't even tell you who sings the songs that I like (or even the names of the songs for that matter). I feel so lame and I often wonder what made me this way. I love reading and researching (for my job). I like to crochet and to paint. I love to take pictures. I guess I love the more gentle side of life.

My parents were here this weekend & I think I figured out part of what makes me the way that I am.

Now you all know that I ADORE my parents. They are the sweetest loving-est people that anyone could ever ask for. I swear I won the parental lottery with them.

Well.... with that said.... They have the tele on from the time they wake up (if they are in the room or not) till the time they go to sleep. They always have, my whole life. Oh and it is LOUD! Mom is hard of hearing and you better not talk over what she is trying to hear...

*sigh*

I realized that I always hated taking a back seat to things that were so unimportant.

I have always been outgoing, I am very friendly and I like people for the most part. When I was a child a spent a lot of time alone and I actually liked it. I still do. My parents never understood that I never needed people to define me. I like me just the way I am. When I was a teen I was lucky in the fact that I had two older brothers. One ran with a rough crowd and was very respected in those circles, therefor they weren't anything but sweet to me (they HAD to be). My other brother was VERY popular. He played sports and was in the theater in school. That made being in the grade just below his a breeze! The teachers loved him and so did everyone else. Everyone was always so nice to me. I enjoyed being known for whatever the reason. I always seemed to find the odd ducks that never seemed to fit in. I always tried to include everyone in my "circle of friends".

I shamefully remember in the middle school I was dared to say something mean to a girl once. I vowed after seeing the look in her eyes that I would never cause anyone that kind of pain ever again. So from that day forward I kept that promise. My parents never understood why I befriended everyone. I didn't hang out with everyone but I did treat everyone with the same amount of respect that I always wanted. Now I tell my kids that not standing up for someone is almost like they were the ones being mean to that person. All you have to do is tell the bullies,"that's enough for one day, give them a break..." You never know, it may be the nicest thing that has happened to that person in a very long time. What if that person made a promise to themselves that after school they were going to commit suicide if anyone picks on them one..more..time. But you were able to stop and make a difference in that person's life, even if it is only for a minute. If you are not a part of the solution, you are part of the problem.

I always believed that I could be that person to make a difference, even if only for a minute. That child in me is still there and I like her. My parents could never understand that. Wasn't being popular and good looking enough? Wasn't dating the captain of the football team enough? You are living every teens dream, isn't THAT enough?

I always wondered, is it ever enough?

Are these what make me tick?

*rant over*