HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LITTLEMAN....


Well yesterday was Littleman's 14th birthday. Obviously we have been busy all weekend. We went to Hooters and the movies. He had friends spend the night. He has had fun.
The hubby has been sick and now I am. I came to work today but I am feeling peeee-u-kie! Hope you have a wonderful Monday.

Mememememememe.....

Stolen unceremoniously from Tysgirl, Kat & Emotional Mullet...

I am : writing this meme, duh!
I think : all the time, my brain never ever shuts off.
I know : more than I care to sometimes.
I want : a long Caribbean vacation.
I have : good kids and a wonderful husband.
I wish : the world for my kids.
I hate : hate!
I miss : my nephew, everyday.
I fear : that people won't remember me when I'm gone.
I feel : like simming.
I hear : my daughter talking to the cat.
I smell : popcorn
I crave : some of that popcorn.
I search : for answers to questions that don't have answers.
I wonder : what the future holds.
I regret : not not being able to talk my nephew in to moving to Savannah.
I love : my life.
I ache : all over.
I am not : stupid.
I believe : life is not a dress rehearsal, live it like your the star of the show.
I dance : like I am seizing.
I sing : in my car..... alone.
I cry : too often.
I don’t always : take care of myself like I should.
I fight : very infrequently, I don't like confrontation.
I write : because it feels good.
I win : what?! No I don't!
I lose : weight but it keeps finding me.
I never : thought I would ever have kids, let alone like them...
I always : treat other how I want to be treated.
I confuse : um...nothing.
I can usually be found : checking others blogs or surfing Flickr.
I am scared : that I have not been stressing to my children how important furthering their education REALLY is.
I need : my family.
I am happy : when those around me are happy.
I imagine : life couldn't get any better than this.

The End.

WEDNESDAY WHINE....


Not to be confused with a Humpday Holler (those are much more fun). I went to a Sand Gnat game last night. My GF asked me if I wanted to go, she had free tickets which included free dinner and free beer. I couldn't pass that up! Well, I got home around 10:30. The hubby was asleep and the kids were wide awake.
*heavy sigh*
Now I'm terribly tired and I want to go home. I am whiny and complainy and I want my mommy! Hope you are all having a great day while I am sitting here whining...

FOREVER DRAMA....


Well, this coming Sunday is my son's 14th birthday. I have not planned a party (yet)... He wants a swim party at the YMCA. That's awesome! Except we are not members of the Y any more. So I am going to call them and find out if we can have a party there or if we have to become members or what. But I feel like a heel for waiting till the last minute. Poor Babygirl hasn't had a decent really birthday party in about 3 years. Only because it is right before Thanksgiving and I (again) wait till the last minute. This year I really have to get it together because she is going to be 13 yep, my baby is getting all grown up *sigh* when did that happen??? Is anyone out there as bad at planning as I am???
Anyone!?

IS THE WEEKEND GONE ALREADY!?!


There I was minding my own business and the weekend passed right there in front of my eyes... I feel like it never happened. I took the kids to the mall Saturday morning, killed a few hours there as well as lots of money (of course). Then we went to the pet store to get some more fish for the fish tank. When we went outside ready to head home and pick up the hubby to go to the Latin Festival..... when I looked toward Savannah.... the sky was PITCH BLACK and you could see the lightening flashing. Umm.... So much for the festival or the beach! Babygirl decided to stay over at her friend's house. Littleman played his new video games and the hubby and I settled in for the evening. I realized just how much I missed him when he was gone. Then I woke up to breakfast in bed on Sunday!!! Am I lucky or what!? I asked him why, what did I do to deserve that and he said,"No reason, just because..."
I love that man!
Now I am left wondering why the weekends have to be so damn short...

HAPPY FRIDAY...

I am here at work attempting to work but to no avail.
I have had a headache all day and at times it feels like I am having a stroke. Yeah, that bad. It has felt like someone was sitting on my eyes with someone else drilling a hole in the top back right side of my head. It's getting a little better now it feels like someone hit me square in the eyes with a baseball bat. They are swollen and weepy. Trust me it's a lot better than it was this morning. I am going to have fun driving home, huh?
I hope to be up here and posting this weekend, but don't count on it. I appear to have a full weekend with the beach and the mall and downtown Savannah in my planner... Let's hope the headache takes a hike!

This is how I'm feeling right now....

HAVE I TOLD YOU THAT I AM SO HAPPY TO HAVE MY FAMILY BACK???


I am, BUT they are a messy bunch. My house was immaculate when they were gone and now it looks like a whirlwind happened. I guess I should have expected it.
My son is starting to get back in to his old tricks. I am about to enroll him in a summer program to keep him away from the dregs that he thinks he needs to hang with. There are two boys that are straight out of the movie "Deliverance", they are brothers and as evil as you can imagine. Well my son is a follower and thinks these guys are really cool. So of course he wants to do what they are doing. Lucky us, they live right around the corner from us. What are we supposed to do to keep them away from our kids? There was a house that burned down just before my son left for Panama and the older brother texted him a picture of it. Now I am beginning to wonder if the boy had set the fire... I don't trust them at all. Their parents are almost non-existent as you can well imagine so talking to them won't ever happen. Next thing you know these two will probably start building pipe bombs or start with the whole drug scene.
What is a good mother to do?
I want what is best for my son and I have no idea what to do or where to take him or what to enroll him in. If he made better friends or better choices on his own I wouldn't worry so much. He has always had poor judgment and will probably continue to do so for his entire life. I have a brother that is the same exact way. I want better for him. He is a sweet kid with a great big heart. I love him so much and he just doesn't realize the impact of things.
*sigh*
Wish me luck.

I've Got A Friend....


Well, I have more than one, but this one in particular needs some good energy and karma today. I can't go in to details. But if you are reading this take a moment and think,"Gee I hope Big Mama's friend is doing O.K."
For me.
Please?

MONDAY YET AGAIN....


It is Monday yet again. Almost all is right with my world. My family is back they arrived around 9:00 Saturday night. They are tanned, burned and peeling. I think my son grew another inch.
I fed the dog and let her out this morning. I went back in to dry my hair and heard her barking. I didn't think much of it because she is a barker. When I went out to get in my car I looked over and the gate was open. I went back in and woke my son to have him go look for her. Oh well, I guess she just doesn't like living with us. So.... my world is getting back to normal.

*UPDATE*
The wandering hound is back at home....again....

YaY!!!

My family is almost home! The hubby called from Atlanta to tell me that they are safely in the U.S. but the plane has been delayed (of course). So I should expect them around 9:00 tonight (instead of 7:30 *pout*). I am so excited to see them, I miss them soooo much.

Please wish them a safe and uneventful return.

*UPDATE*

They are home safe and sound!!!*

PRIDE MONTH...


I didn't know that June is Gay Pride month. YaY my birthday month! I don't keep up with very much and I just found this out last night. I know I'm slow, but at least I'm learning. I wish that we (as a nation) would finally figure out that being gay is not a threat. Obviously I am not gay but I can empathize with those who are. I can not imagine the every day struggles they face. Be it personally or at the work place. I don't understand why so many people are offended by same sex marriages. I think people loving each other is a wonderful thing and it should be encouraged. I don't understand why they want to ban the marriages. That is so hurtful and hateful. I have a couple that lives 2 doors down from me. They are very nice people with a nice house and a nice dog. They are no different than us except they don't have kids. I often wonder if one of them (God forbid) were to end up in the ICU, would the other one not be able to come in because they are not "blood related". That's stupid! I often think about how they are discriminated against. That's wrong. Our nation fails so many people, for what?!!? Does this make people feel better about themselves because they stopped a marriage between a same sex couple? What about getting insurance and other perks from their partner's place of employment. I don't understand the thinking (or should I say NON-thinking) behind all this. What others do in their private life does not and has not ever affected the way I live. I have been teaching my children since they were little that being gay is just a part of life. Either you are born that way or you aren't. It's not something you "fix" it is what it is.

For all the small minded pinheads out there, just think about why you are against the whole community of people that only want to have the same rights as you.
Are you threatened?
Are you so far in the closet that you refuse to admit the fact that you are gay?
What is it?
Why do you feel the need to hate?
Fill me in because I am obviously missing something. Oh and I am so glad I am missing something.

You Are a Green Crayon

Your world is colored in harmonious, peaceful, natural colors. While some may associate green with money, you are one of the least materialistic people around. Comfort is important to you. You like to feel as relaxed as possible - and you try to make others feel at ease. You're very happy with who you are, and it certainly shows! Your color wheel opposite is red. Every time you feel grounded, a red person does their best to shake you.

What Color Crayon Are You?

Yep, that sounds about right!

I'M BETTER TODAY....


I was very melancholy this weekend (if you couldn't tell). But I'm better now. I chatted with my nephew's mother and she is holding up well. She knows that she gave birth to and angel.
I talked to my family on Saturday and they sound like they are having fun. Today they are heading out to Decameron and they are very excited! I would be too, that is where we spent our 2nd honeymoon. I wish I could be there every weekend.....alone with the hubby.... *grin*
Here is a pic of Babygirl and Littleman eating sugarcane that they just chopped down with a machete. Of course she is making it look like she was gonna chop down her brother... My mother in law and Tio A. are in the background

TODAY IS BITTERSWEET...

Today is the day I get to celebrate the life of someone who meant so much to me. He was a very important part of my world. My life has been made richer and I have been made more compassionate because of him.

Today my sweet nephew would have turned 21.

His life was a gift to all of us who got to know and love him. Everyone that knew him took an instant liking to him. He was quiet and sweet, smart and funny. He had more natural charisma than anyone I have ever known before or since. I only hope my children turn out to be 1/2 as wonderful as he was.

Luis-Fer your life on this earth was cut way too short. I am just glad that you let me in to your life and that I was able to love you and share in your ups and downs. In my eyes you could never do any wrongs. My love for you has always been unconditional. I miss you but I know you will meet me at the gates of Heaven one day with that wonderful smile and big warm hug. I miss you "my boy" and I will continue to miss you until I see you again.

(this is my nephew and his son around the same age)

Please everyone hug your spouse a little tighter, go ahead and read your child just one more book, for me. Slow down and take the time to listen. We always planned to get our children together and to hang. It's too late now and I will never again get to tell my nephew how much I love him and how proud I have always been of him. Slow down, there is nothing more important than to stop, listen and love.

***UPDATE!!!***

The dog has returned!

Pops found her wandering around and brought her home. What a relief!

Now you all may go back to your daily lives and be worry free....

TODAY IS MY FRIDAY...


YaY!!!
I am taking tomorrow off and I am gonna hang with the pops!!!
The fam called last night. My son sounds like a man on the phone. It made me miss them so much. I have always been good by myself but I feel like I'm not so good at it anymore. I have a hard time sleeping without him. I have a hard time when I get home and have lots of stuff to share with the kids and they aren't there. I'm glad this isn't permanent. They sounded happy and they were about to head out for ice cream so we had to get off the phone.

Oh and the dog still hasn't returned, *heavy sigh*...

HUMPDAY WITH NO ONE TO HUMP....


Well the fam is having fun in Panama. I have received 3 e-mails from Babygirl telling me of her fun travels. That makes me feel better. I am missing them, I knew I would. I got home from work yesterday and Pops was beside himself. The dog escaped....again..... and he feels like there was something he could have done to prevent it. Um... nope! That dog has been an escape artist since we got her. She may or may not come home. I opened the gate and put food out there for her. We drove around back roads looking for her. Oh well. I feel bad for my father, he is so upset. As many times as she has escaped, it's a wonder she ever finds her way back home.
Dork!
Anyway, Pop and I have eaten out every night since he's been here. I love that, no cooking!!! I am going to be a two ton Tessie by the time the fam returns!
I'm at work so I had better get back to it... Have a Hump-able Hump Day just for me, please...

It's Monday...


Yep, Big Mama Day was good. I got the fam to the airport and they flew to Panama without a hitch. I got a call at 12:30am letting me know that there were there and safe. Thank God! I still couldn't sleep because....
1) there was a storm blowing through and it was loud...
2) like a dumb-ass I went through my son's phone and saw/read things I didn't need to know....
3) I hate sleeping alone....
My pops is here and I am really enjoying his company. He is so sweet and hasn't changed at all since I was a kid. He still micro-manages his entire being and hates himself for it. We did a little grocery shopping and ate out at the Longhorn's Steakhouse, yum. I had a gift card that made it even better! I am still at a loss as to what to do for fun in the evenings while he's here. Any suggestions would be welcome.
We will probably go to the mall at some point because my mom wants some pralines. Can't send him home without those!!!

BIG MAMA DAY!!!

Hooray! It's finally here, the day of all days!

Big Mama Day!

Have fun celebrating me today for calories don't count today!

Happy Birthday to me and now I shall go eat cake for breakfast!

Hope you all have an awesome one, just for me!