Hello...


It's been way too long now. Not much has changed. Yet tons of things have changed. Both of my kids are in high school now. That's huge! Babygirl went through a couple years of Hell and I am so glad she is starting to grow up. Littleman isn't so little any more. He stands 5'11". He had a great awesome wonderful year last year. He had a direction and a drive that was unstoppable. Both kids went to Panama for the summer & came back changed. She for the better and he for the worse.
All his drive and direction seems to have been replaced with the need to be a slacker who wants to get high, get layed, play video games and fail. IMHO he is heading down a slippery slope with very little chance of turning it around. *sigh* He was on the drill team last year and took them to nationals. He was riding that wave of goodness. This year I can barely get him out of the bed. He refuses to go to drill but wants all the benefits it brings. I don't like him very much lately. I hope that changes soon.
She seems to have realized that sneaking out, bad behavior and general rebelliousness doesn't get you anywhere. She is now on the drill team and is involved with her very handsome commanding officer. "Spark" happens to be a little younger than my son but with a lot on the ball and a wonderful future. Good kid, good family, good grades and a great smile.
My job is going good for the moment. I hope we are able to stay afloat through Christmas. Hubby is wonderful as usual :)
Just please let my son be going through a phase and please let this phase be over really soon.

WTF!?



O.K. my children have gone insane. No wait they are both teens and if they are lucky they will live to see their 20s! My dear sweet son loves his Xbox live. We bought him a 3 month subscription. Was that enough? NO! Hubby pulled up his statement and saw there was 4 unauthorized Xbox live charges. $6 here and & $12 there. "Do you realize that you are stealing money? OUR MONEY!?" "Um, no."
WTF!
Hubby went to check on the kids like he always does before he goes to bed and Babygirl was no where to be found and her window was wide open!!! AFTER MIDNIGHT!
WTF!
She was out with her skank-ho girlfriend that she has been forbade to see. I don't know what to do anymore. I have always thought I was a good mother now I am questioning all that. Where did I go wrong and what have I done to deserve this?
NOTHING!
*right?*

A LITTLE FUNNY FOR YOU....


I just called to check up on my daughter and I could hear "road noise" like she was outside.

I asked,"Where are you?
To which she replied,"I'm walking the dog."
Of course I said,"No you're not. What are you doing?"
BG,"I'm walking."
Me,"With who?"
BG,"The (insert skank-ho gf that I forbade to come to my house ever again)."
Me,"You're in trouble."
BG,"I know."
Me,"You need to head back to the house, NOW! Make sure she calls her mother to come get her."
BG,"Yes ma'am."

O.K. What the F is going on with her, has her head come completely off her body? The only reason I know for a fact that she is NOT walking the dog is because the dog is getting fixed today and I have to pick him up after 3:00. She lied to my face yet again and has the only person not allowed at my house AT MY HOUSE! Um, duh!!!
Please wish me luck that I don't feel the need to kill her in her sleep...

TEENAGERS..... (a followup)....


Someone once told me that you are only as happy as your saddest child. I believe that with my whole heart. Last week Babygirl was gliding through life happy as can be. She had a little friend who (up until now) I like very much. She is at our house at least once a week if not more. She comes from a good home. Her parents are really sweet. She makes good grades and has lots of friends. Up until Sunday this girl was my daughter's BEST BFF ever. She left Saturday and everything was just fine. All of a sudden she got a hair across her ass and started being really hateful to my daughter. I asked Babygirl what was going on. Now, BG has lots of friends, boys, girls and different ages of each. She hates drama and is a total straight shooter. She always tells everyone exactly how she feels, no holds barred. She has this one guy friend that lives down the street (who is also friends with my son). She tells this boy to his face that he is weird and they laugh about it, big deal right? Well, this friend and she were going to play with the boys and the friend decided that she doesn't like this boy. BG stated,"that's O.K. he's weird anyway...." not another thought to the whole thing. Well, that was until this little girl brought it up and said,"If you said that about him, what do you say about me behind my back? You're two faced and I never want to play with you again...." My daughter was stunned and hurt. This is her best BFF ever. She would never say anything behind her back that she would never say to her face. Now when BG tries to text her or call her, nothing. My daughter has every class with her and she hurts every time she sees her. I told her that if she is really a real true friend she will miss you come back to you eventually. I told her the best "revenge" is to be happy and act like it doesn't bother her. In the meantime I want her to branch out and invite other friends to the house and start making new BFFs. I have a feeling that another little girl who is friends with them both has started the whole thing. Nothing a mother can do to relieve the pain. Growing pains suck!
Ahhhh, teen drama. The rotten middle school days. I remember them not so fondly.
If anyone has some words of wisdom, please clue me in. I am sad and lost for my baby.

Judgment at Neurenburg....


At least that's what it feels like when I go to my children's conferences. Yesterday I went home early feeling like poop. I was a little fever-ie. Every muscle and bone in my body hurt, achy and icky. So the last thing I wanted to do was sit across from the teacher teams to hear how absolutely God-awful my children are. Well some good news from the "judges";
Babygirl is getting A's and B's and is finally coming out of her shell. That's a good thing. They are lucky she even speaks to them in class.
Littleman on the other hand well, the only thing they ever say that's nice is,"he is a really smart, sweet boy." of course after that is the dreaded,"BUT..." But he's lazy, but he's inattentive, but, but, but... MY ASS! He has ADHD, I know this. He is on medication for his ADHD. He does the very best he can with what he has to work with. This is the only time in his whole life that he is doing this well (believe it or not). He is making all B's and C's. They don't have D's at their school, anything below a C is failing. I think he is doing O.K., obviously he can do better, all kids can. But if you have ever watched this boy suffer and struggle as much as he has you would know that he really is working hard. I just don't like the teachers making me feel like a bad parent because he is not like all the other kids. I know he's not, that's why he is in Special Education and has provisions in place to help him get through. He does all the same work as all the other kids, he is fully mainstreamed and the allowences he is given are more time on tests and longer times to turn in homework. Ooohhhh is that so hard for the teachers to understand that it does take him longer. His test grades are out of this world so he is obviously getting it and understanding it. Cut him some slack and I am a damn good parent!
They don't call me Big Mama for nothin you know!

I NO LONGER HAVE A BABY IN MY HOUSE....

*pout*

I am sorry to say that my baby is no longer a baby. Today is her 13th birthday. Can you believe that she is now a...

*heavy sigh*

TEENAGER!

That's right folks today my tiny 6 lb 6 oz Babygirl who arrived late at night on November 18, 1995 just grew up before my eyes.

Let me tell you a little something about her. When I was pregnant for her I really wanted a brother for my son. I wanted him to have someone to play with and wrestle with. About the time I was 6 months along I had a dream that the baby was a girl and that made me realize that this might just turn out to be a girl and that I should really open up my mind to the possibilities. My due date was December 13th and around the 6 1/2 month mark they noticed that my belly wasn't growing as it should have been. Every measurement came up short. I started having ultrasounds every other week to every week. She never let us see that she was a girl, but that was the least of my worries. My blood pressure was high (but they did NOTHING about that, thanks Government hospital...) and every ultrasound showed that her legs were crossed at the thigh and her arms were behind her back. Yes, that was with every ultrasound. I was beginning to worry that the baby I was carrying had something very wrong with it. On November 18th 1995 I threw a dinner party. Eight people came over. We had a blast. I was very uncomfortable and ended up standing up to eat. We ushered them all out around 8:30 because I was starting to feel not so good. I decided to take a bath to see if that would help. I was laying in the water pouring water over my stomach which helped a LOT. Then I realized that I was having contractions. Then I timed them.... I told the hubby that I thought it was time. He called the hospital and they told us to come straight in. So as planned, hubby brought my 16 month old son over to the neighbor's house. He helped me get dressed and we went to the Army hospital which was about 15 miles away. We raced over there. Just as we rounded the corner to the hospital I felt a really big pain down both of my sides. When that happened I saw what looked like a flash of light the pain was so intense. We got in to the hospital and the hubby took the wrong elevator. We raced across the hospital to the labor and delivery ward. Hubby went in to sign me in. One of the nurses asked when I was due (and after my contraction) I told her the 13th of December. She wheeled me in and said she would check me out. Cool. I stood up, my water broke and the head was crowning. Another really big nurse told me to get up on the table (um yeah that was possible!) she PICKED ME UP and put me on the table. They rushed in all sorts of carts with deliver/doctor-ly stuff and told me NOT TO PUSH. I wasn't pushing, she just wanted OUT! There were about 14 students who got to witness her making her debut. they held her up and all I could see was her tiny face with one eye open and a quick "WAAA!" There was no time for bonding because she was early and it was not a delivery room set up for this. They whisked her and the hubby off to the nursery and I was stuck there with a bunch of strangers. Oh and not to mention she came so fast I ended up with 7 stitches in my hoo-ha which they put in with no pain killers.

(I dare anyone talk to me about government health care...)

That's right, I AM tough as Hell, don't forget it.

Let me tell you that she was well worth the trauma. She turned out to be just great. We left the hospital together, her lungs were mature and she held her body temperature. I was psyched. She has always been different than most kids. She has never done what the other kids are doing, she has her own drummer with her own beat. I admire that. She is very honest, almost to a fault. She is very thoughtful and caring. Oh and not to mention one the the most fun people to have around. I just adore her.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABYGIRL

YOU ROCK!!!

I KNOW A GIRL....

Or should I say a woman... This woman is one of the sweetest people on the face of this earth. I just found out last night that she is going to have a baby girl. I am so very excited!!! My Babygirl is my most favorite person on the earth. She has me wrapped VERY tightly around her little finger. Her skin is the softest I have ever felt, she's beautiful & she has always had little dimples on her knuckles (even at her thinnest weight). I just love her hands. She has been a constant source of enjoyment and enlightenment. She is not afraid to be herself, she is reserved and funny. She has lots of friends but has no problem putting them in their place when they are not acting right. I swear she has been on this earth before, she is such an old soul. She understands a lot more than she is told and is attracted to people not by how they look, but how their heart looks. That speaks volumes when you are talking about a 12 year old. I can't say enough good things about her, she's awesome.
So I guess what I'm rambling on about is..... I am psyched that she is having a baby girl, they are one of a kind and she deserves a wonderful little person.
She is going to be a great mother, I just know it!

WHEW!!!


I have had a Hellava week.
My folks are still here which is a good thing. Littleman tried out for the football team and MADE IT!!! YaY!!! He wanted this so bad he could taste it!
Babygirl tried out for volleyball and didn't make it, but she's totally good with it, soccer is her sport. She was just trying this as something new. She'll try out whatever the next sport is too... My parents and I were going to go celebrate their 47th wedding anniversary this evening at Lady & Sons restaurant, you know the Paula Dean place... Mom has been wanting to go there for a loooong time. Well at the last minute we found out that all footballer's parents have to be in the gym for a meeting @ 7:00 tonight. YaY! So I called my folks and let them know they are on their own tonight.
So please send good thoughts this way so my son stays in one piece...

HAPPY FRIDAY Y'ALL...


It's Friday and I am feeling a lot better. I am not back to my old self yet, but I am holding down my food. That counts!!! (at this point you have no idea how much that counts...)
Took Littleman to the Dr. yesterday and he is 5'8" & 3/4. and weighs 122 lbs. OMG! When did he grow? That's it, I'm going to put a brick on his head!
Moose!
They start school next Wednesday and all the BS that goes with it *heavy sigh*. Babygirl has declared that this year there will be no drama, lets see how long that lasts. Littleman has declared that he is going to try to be really involved in school activities and sports this year, good luck to him. For that matter good luck to both of them.
Hope you all have a Fabulous Friday!

MY DAUGHTER....

...is a hero.
Yep, you heard it here first. She was at an away soccer game last night. She and another girl were walking back toward the team when the other girl suddenly fainted. PLOP! Right there on the ground. My daughter didn't know what to do and couldn't leave her laying there on the ground so.... She poured cold water on her hair hoping to rouse her and it didn't work. She couldn't leave her laying there so she picked her up and carried her back to the team. She was so scared and thought the girl was dead, LOL! But alas she wasn't dead! Thank God!!!
So my baby is a hero!

EVIL MAMASITA....

Yep, that's me! Remember the little Twit from a couple of posts back? Yeah, I know you do. If you don't go read that first or this won't make much sense....
(No I will not link to it because I am far too lazy.)
Well, you know the old saying,"What goes around, comes around." Well I find a sort of terrible joy in the fact that this little Twit broke her leg this weekend. Babygirl reported that she came to school sporting a cast and crutches. I guess Babygirl was right.
I should listen to her more often.

WHY MY DAUGHTER IS A WAY BETTER PERSON THAN ME....

She has had a little girl (Lets call her Twit, shall we?) bullying her at school. Since she started in the new school district the beginning of 5th grade this little Twit has bothered her and teased her, etc. Well, now the little Twit has taken it to a whole new level and has started calling my baby a slut and a ho. *heavy sigh* I lend my shoulder for my daughter to lean on and my ear to be her sounding board. I give her advise when she asks for it but I refuse to interfere unless she asks me to. It just kills me inside. I want (SO BAD) to go over there and pop the little Twit upside her ugly little mean-girl pin head.
But I refrain because
#1. I don't want to go to jail.
#2. my daughter needs to fight her own battles.
#3. It would just make things worse for her.
I told her that I totally would bail her out of the front office if she were to do it herself. Yep, that is such good parenting on my part huh? I didn't say I was proud of myself...
So do you know what my sweet wonderful kind loving child said to me????
Do ya?!?!

*this makes me feel like the biggest puke in the world*

She said,"Mama she is so jealous of me she just can't stand herself. Her mother is a drug addict that doesn't live with her. She lives with her father and he doesn't love her. He just buys her lots of stuff instead of spending time with her. I feel sorry for her. I have a family that loves me and buys me what I need when I need it. My friends are my friends because they understand me, not because I give them stuff. She only has friends because she gives them things, not because they like her. She will figure it out one day and she will be very sorry."
So, am I the worst mother for suggesting that my sweet little Babygirl beat the crap out of this awful little Twit?
I guess so.

JUST HAVE TO SHARE....

This is a pic that my niece sent to me from WAY BACK in the day... Look how thin I was and look at how young the kids were. This is when I fell in love with them.

I had a good weekend. My daughter made the school soccer team. This is the first school sports team that either of my kids have joined. Very cool! She is in the 6th grade and I'm a little surprised she made the cut. Not because she is a bad player (far from it) she is only in the 6th grade. I heard that they didn't let the 6th graders on the team unless they were good. Looks like she's good! We had dinner at a friend's house Saturday night and went shopping all day on Sunday. So all in all it was a very good weekend.

Oh and my dad is a HUGE Giant's fan so he is very happy, YaY!

Hope everyone has a good Monday!

SORRY MY SWEET BABY....

I tried so very hard to post last night. A virus has invaded my computer at home and I am not a happy camper

*pout*

I was all set to tell you how very awesome and wonderful my Babygirl is (Ohhh like I have to tell you again!) I think you can all tell how much I adore her just by listening to me rambling on and on and on and on..... I can't help it, she is my sunshine girl. She just brings a certain levity to a room when she enters. I do have a couple of pics that I e-mailed to myself so I could post them here...

But of course in typical Blogger fashion I am unable to post them.

Looks like I am batting 1000 over here!

If I am not up and running by tomorrow, I hope you all have a WONDERFUL Thanksgiving! My family and T-mom's family are renting a 15 passenger van together, we rented a condo in Florida, we have Thanksgiving dinner tickets to the Hard Rock Cafe and are spending the rest of the week at Universal Studios! I will be taking tons of pics which of course I will share when I get back.

Hope all is well with everyone and your holidays are all without issues!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABYGIRL!!!

I am so sorry I didn't get a chance to post on 11/18/2007, her REAL 12th birthday. I am at work now and don't have to time to give her a post that she so truly deserves.....

I love you Baby!

*More later...*

WHO SAID BEAUTY IS ONLY SKIN DEEP???

Babygirl's beauty goes clean through.

She is so kind, gentle and sweet. I am so glad I have the opportunity to be her mother.

MY BABY....

My sweet little Babygirl had middle school orientation last night. I guess that means she really IS going to grow up. I so enjoy her. I hope she and I always stay close. I fear that when she is a teen she is not going to want to spend any time with me. I guess if that ever happens I will be glad that she is spreading her wings and not NEEDING me. I know she will always love me though.

On another note Littleman want on a dolphin tour field trip yesterday. They had a blast. We had a checkup not that long ago and he grew 3 inches and 8 1/2 pounds since Christmas!!! We are almost eye to eye...

Why oh why do they insist on growing so quickly?!?!?!

WHY?

I'm sure you are going to wonder why I am putting this here on my blog space.......

Teen Arrested for Family Stabbing

The search has ended for a wanted teenager who police say brutally attacked his family.
16-year-old ***** is in custody at the ***** County Jail. Deputies say he stabbed his mother, his step-father, and his 7-year old step-brother with a switch blade knife.
The mother and step-father are at Memorial Health, their conditions are unknown, the brother died.
It all happened around 8:30 Friday night on *****Drive, off ******Road. The teen was on the run for more than 12 hours.
Friday night officers combed the woods using dogs and a helicopter with infrared trying to locate him. Law enforcement requested people who lived in the area to stay in their homes with their doors locked throughout the search.
Around 10:30 am Saturday deputies spotted ***** in the woods and arrested him. Neighbors say they are shocked that something like this could happen in their community.
***** was a wrestler at ******* School. He later transferred to ***** School in Savannah and this year returned to ******* High School. Wrestling coach ****** knew ***** well, he was his coach at **** School. "He was a kid who loved playing sports, he was a good kid, competitive. He was a tough kid, never intimidated. He did anything I asked of him. Always say yes sir," said *******.
Coach ****** said students at ***** School are shocked over what has happened.
****** will be arraigned Tuesday morning. He is charged with Felony Murder, Malice Murder, 3 counts of Aggravated Assault, 3 counts of Aggravated Battery, Cruelty to a Child, and Possession of a Knife or Firearm during the commission of a crime.

My daughter came home from school yesterday and asked what murder meant. My baby, my innocent little child told me that they had a moment of silence in school and they had grief councilors. Then she asked me the question that I could NOT answer. "Mama, why did that little boy have to die?" I told her,"His mommy is going to need an angel right now and that was the only thing that God could think of to do for her. So he is her angel and will take care of her while she is dealing with all the sadness of missing him and hurting for her other son." She seemed satisfied with that answer,

I'm not.

I GUESS #14 ISN'T LUCKY?!?!?!

My parents came up and jinxed the game, I mean watched the game with us. That was cool...

Unfortunately we were playing against another red team and being the kind sweet sportspeople that we are decided that we would don the green jerseys. Unfortunately someone else got to #13 first so Babygirl got the next best thing #14.

She did play really well and enjoyed herself, but they did not win, the final score was 3-1. She was so sweet about it,"Big Mama somebody has to win..." Out of the mouths of babes. I swear she wraps herself tighter and tighter around my heart every day.

This "dust devil" decided to give us an unscheduled break. Game resumed shortly thereafter...

Can you see the kid in the middle, he was one of ours, LOL!

You win some you lose some, better luck next week guys. Hopefully they won't be wearing the booger green color...

CAN YOU SAY LUCKY #13?

I CAN!

Today was Babygirl's first soccer game ever! She is #13 (of course). This picture was taken during the pre-game prayer.

This pic was of them warming up
This is after the game that they WON 3-0!!!!

This was one of the little brothers with his dog, I couldn't resist...