Ok, Happy Halloween! Here we are, my best GF and partner in crime and moi. I am the one wearing 4 shirts and a vest with the big floppy (albeit) silly hat and she is the rasta-mama. I look really fat and kinda silly in this pic, but I had a blast! I think we were the most colorful people there. As soon as she uploads the rest of them I will be posting them. Hope you all enjoy my silliness. Happy Halloween and remember not to eat too much candy (well.. until the kids are in bed anyway).

What FUN!

We (my best GF and I) went to the company Halloween party and had a BLAST! As we all know I was the DD. The only other people there that knew that I was not drinking were my bud and the bartender. All others must have thought I was 3 sheets to the wind. I was laughing and dancing and just having a great time. I got tons of pics and I will post them as soon as GF e-mails them to me (they are on her camera). Well she gave her number to a "brotha" last night. Like I have said before she has "the fever for the flava of a brotha". Hey whatever gets her rocks off, have at it. I do have to say that he was very nice looking and only 26 years old. HELLO, WE ARE 38!!! LOL!!! It's a trip.
Anyway I got home about one in the morning and had to get up about 6:30 to get ready for the parade that my daughter was in. OMG! I was freezing and sore (from dancing). *yes world I am getting old* The kids all pelted the crowd with tons of candy. I use the term crowd loosely, it was all the parents and siblings. At one point the state police stopped all traffic in both directions of Highway 80 so the kids could pick up all the candy that was in the road. That was cool. They came over the police car loudspeaker and told us to clean it up and told us it was safe. I found that oddly funny for some reason.
Well I had better go for a few. As soon as I get those pics I will be back to post those. How fun!!!

Halloween parties and Pep Ralleys...

No, the Halloween party is not for the kids, it's for me. My best bud and partner in crime works at a place that has the best parties. She works for a really big law firm (unlike the puny one I work for). Anyway they are having their party at a parking garage downtown. It is going to be way cool. I am going to be the DD so looks like I will be the sober/driving sidekick. I like being in control. Not to mention my daughter has a parade on Saturday and we have to leave the house at 8:30am. So a long night of partying is just outta the question.
Her bonfire and pep ralley are tomorrow night as well but the rest of the fam is going to have to get it together without me. I really like the bonfire too!!! I said yes to my friend before I knew about the pep ralley. Last year we got pulled over on the way to the pep ralley for a tail light out. The cop saw my daughter's uniform and escorted us. We got there just in time to have her run through the banner! Weeee good timing. I hope the hubby is not late tomorrow (he usually is late everywhere).
I am going to be a peace loving hippie for halloween, that is gonna be fun, I'm stoked! My GF is going as some rasta...??? guy. She is totally white and if you didn't know her you would think she is Jewish (she has a beak on her...) She is not coloring her skin, just wearing fake dreads and the clothes and stuff, it should be a hoot! Mind you we live in Savannah, Georgia. I hope we don't get jumped or shot. She wants to hook up with a brotha so bad she can taste it!!! She has before and I guess that is what she is in the market for. I have never been with a black man. Not for lack of want, just a lack of opportunity. I have been married for like forever now so that takes care of the man I have been with for over 14 of those years. Before that I used to live in one of the whitest state in the nation (I swear). I'm good with it though. I have often been curious, I shall remain so. I can count on both hands the men I have been with (I wish I could name them all, I can all but 2). I lost my virginity to a really nice guy. I often wondered if I was his first, I may never know. He was beautiful. He was built and had big muscles. He had blonde curly hair. His eyes were almost catlike, they could look right through you. His smile could melt the hardest of hearts. I am still very fond of him if you can't tell. Oh and to top it off he had the BEST ASS!!! I mean big handfulls were never enough. Whew....I am getting a little warm thinking about him. I better stop.
Ummm... I am going to change subjects before I can't think any more... I will write more horny-blogging another time. I found this silly/strange link on another blog and I just giggled when I saw it and I had to share. It kind of reminds me of how I feel when I am out of control. Oh and if she gets stuck, just click on her and get her unstuck. It is a fun thing to pass a few minutes.
http://www.izpitera.ru/lj/tetka.swf
I hope that worked for you. I have some old/funny pic to post soon. I will probably get that together this weekend. Have a good night y'all and stay worm out there~~~

Colder than a witches kneecaps!!!

I moved to Savannah, Georgia for one reason (and no it is not the public schools). It is supposed to be warm here. You know the kind of warm that I am talking about, palm trees, the beach, and balmy warm nights. Ummm NO!!! Getting ready for work this morning I noticed that I was freakin freezing so I checked the thermostat and it said 60' can you believe that??? I went to warm up the car and it said 42 outside! WTF is that?!!? *confusion ensues* My body does not compute cold. I am from Vermont and I moved away from there for one reason and one reason only. THE COLD!!! So here I sit in the south with my slippers on and my blanket wrapped around me realizing that I didn't move far enough south! I, my friends, should be straddling the equator. I am going to get a subscription to the local tanning booth just so I can be warm all the way to my bones (well and the fact that tan fat looks better than white fat...). I have friends that live in the north, Vermont, Massachusetts, Washington, Illinois Maine and New York. I love them but I would have to REALLY love them to visit them after the first frost and before the end of mud season. I am going to go curl up with a good book and some warm jammies and only hope that I get some good sleep. I know I'll have some sleepytime tea, that will warm me up... Goodnight all! Keep me warm in your thoughts (please)...

I took this strange little personality test online and lo and behold it was the closest thing to me that I have ever read in my whole entire 38 years! I had a lot of fun taking the test figuring that it would tell me that I am exactly like every other joker that takes these dorky tests. Well, I am but... I digress. This was fun and really hit the nail on the head.

Your Personality Is Rational (NT)

You are both logical and creative.
You are full of ideas.
You are so rational that you analyze everything.
This drives people a little crazy!
Intelligence is important to you.
You always like to be around smart people.
In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally.
You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought.
Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals.
In love, you tend to approach things with logic.
You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent.
At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia.
With others, you are very honest and direct.
People often can't take your criticism well.
As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with.
You think fashion is silly.
On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

So there you go everyone, everything you will ever need to know about me in a nutshell.

Ok, here we are... Baby-girl in her traditional Panamanian dress (MUY Bonita!)

Here is Big Mama the ruler of all... (Ummm...ok)

Here is Little Man Child, he is the one sitting next to the pretty girl... (Of course!)

This is my Hubby the constant source of my amusement and bitching. I do love him and he is beautiful but he is so irritating!!! He alone is a contradiction in terms!

Well....Friday night was as relaxing as can be...

I had a friend over, we polished off a bottle of white wine (I know white wine doesn't like me but I drink it anyway). I had 1 & 1/2 glasses. Yes world it made me hurl! It always has, I just thought I had grown out of it, guess not. No one was online to chat with, bummer. So we played the Sims 2. Yes I am 38 years old and love that game. Come on everybody let's all say it together now,"I'm a dork" LOL!!! No really it is a fun game.

Well baby-girl had a game today and I followed the directions to the letter and never ever found that field. I drove for about 2 hours, ran out of gas, finally got some gas and came home. At least I tried! She has got to be the cutest cheerleader I have ever seen. I'll post a pic soon. Yeah, I keep saying I will post pics. Maybe soon, maybe not. Whenever I get to it and feel like it I suppose. Hey you all have my pic on my first post so at least you know what I the GREAT BIG MAMA look like.
Have to explain that "Big Mama" came about because when my son was little he never called people Mr. or Mrs. or Ms. he called everyone Big as in Big Jones, Big Hope, etc... So one day he accidentally called me Big Mama and I loved it. I am not fat, never was. I am tall and normal sized but I love the thought that with Big Mama people automatically think I am this huge blobby person. Makes me smile just thinking about it....Don't ask, I don't know why. It just does. Well I still have a full day ahead of me so I am going to get off this thing and catch up with all you voyers later~~~

All I have to say is...AAAaahhhhh......

Thank God for Fridays. He rules! LOL!!! Although if I were to have invented work weeks, I would have opted for working 4 and weekend 3. But of course I would work 15 hours a day only because that is me. I love working and I have a really hard time getting out of work mode and in to fun mode. But... once I am in fun mode I am here!!!
Oh, let me tell ya, my hubby is gone for a couple of days and ahhh... I can breathe for a few. I swear I am walking on eggshells here. It really blows when I can't even think without it being wrong. So tonight I am going to have quite a few brews and chat online with some friends and pass out and hog the bed (I can because it is ALL MINE tonight). He comes back tomorrow and I have a feeling things are gonna change. They have to, because if they don't I will have to kill him. Lest he forget I AM the brains of this operation. If I leave he will just fade in to the woodwork.
Aside from my constant battle of the wits with an unarmed man.... I went to my baby-girl's school conference this afternoon. She is too quiet in class (not a surprise). She is totally fab in math and is sucking in Language Arts. I can't believe she is MY kid!!! I love LA and I suck at math. She is her own person and always has been. The son is failing right now. He doesn't turn in his work. Umm... DUMBASS!!!! The only way you are going to succeed is to just DO IT!!! Right or wrong, just prove that you tried!!! He is really frustrating me lately. He is a lot like his ultra disorganized father. Bless his heart if he wasn't so cute and sweet, I would have to kill him too!!! LOL!!!

*Disclaimer* I don't mean KILL in the literal sense. I could never ever hurt the ones I love, not even a little bit.

Humpday ...humpday ...humpday!!!

I love that word humpday! It is a very fun suggestive kind of word. Well today was a verrrrry long day at work today. OMG! I worked on one file all day. ONE! That is ridiculous! I can usually clear about 10 in a day. Oh well, it WAS a stinker of a file. I love working in an attorney's office and I adore my boss (just don't tell him that). But let me tell you if I haven't told you before, real estate is boring and quite dry. There are no fights and it is usually a good transition. Someone is happy that they are getting a new house and someone else is happy because they are moving on... hence a happy venture. Every now and then I like to see a little drama and mud slinging. Ummm not in real estate.

Went to my son's saxophone lesson after work. Kathy is totally impressed that he is playing SO well after not playing all summer. She thinks he has a great shot at "All States". If he pursues it, he will be the youngest ever to make it in his school. He is good at it and is frustrated at the politics of band in school. To think I have a frustrated artist as a son and he is only 11. Baby-girl starts with a new piano teacher on Monday. I met her tonight. Seems ok, no great shakes. Kinda old and mean looking, but I think I am going to like her.

The hubby is going away for a couple of days. I am happy about that. I mean I could use a little break. Maybe I can clear my head and start to like him all over again. I mean really!!! Wow do I sound like a mean horrible bitch or what??? I am sure that any normal married woman can see where I am coming from on that.

Parent conferences are Friday so is my annual pap smear. I HATE those things!!! Friday is going to be a longass day. But the weekend is coming and we all know how I long for the weekends. Hopefully I will get some down time. I really need it, badly!

Back to the norm...

...and I don't mean norm as in Norman, LOL!!! Work is much easier and I feel safer when my favorite co-worker is back at her station. She bought me a coaster and a bracelet and a little statue of the Statue of Liberty. I love when people go on vacation and really think about me. Makes me feel loved.
I just got an IM from my most favorite nephew. He lives in Canada. He is my husband's cousin's son. His parents are both from Panama, but his mother is also black, he has the most beautiful skin I have ever seen. I have to see if I have any pics of him. He is 18 now and wow did he grow up fast!!! He is going to be famous one day, I just know it!!! He speaks 3 languages, can play chess (really well!), he is great with adults and is a great student. Not to mention he is one of the most street savy people that I know. He impresses me to no end, and has since he was a little tiny boy. I always said that he is the reason I decided kids weren't so bad after all. Well, I'll leave you with that thought for now.

Sunday again...

I love the weekends. I am sure most people do of course. My co-worker just got back from NYC last night and I can't tell you how happy I am to have her back!!! She is so great! Anyway, it is my weekend and I don't even want to think about work. Went to the "Great Ogeechee Seafood Festival" last night. What a sham! It was a glorified fair!!! No great shakes, that's for sure! They played it up SO BIG on the radio and yes there were tons of people but very little seafood. Oh well at least I actually spent the afternoon with my family, ALL 4 OF US!!! That never happens. My hubby usually has plans that don't include me. Yep, they are either just him or him and the kids. I guess we really don't have a whole lot in common any more. Seems as though when I think of things for us to do, he has a headache and when he thinks of things to do they involve some sort of motorcycling. Oh well, maybe we should work on trying to get back in sync.
I am really struggling with my emotions for some reason lately. I feel all negative toward my husband and that is so not me. I hate negative people. I mean I REALLY hate them. He is a good guy. He trys really hard to take care of us. He works a full time job and goes to school full time. Every free moment he has (which is very little) he tries to be around the kids. So why am I complaining? Well, when was the last time I got a kiss? Not the see ya later tater kind, I am talking about the kind that melts your socks. When was the last time I was told that I am loved? When was the last time we got a babysitter and spent time alone and naked? I can't even remember. I really miss the romance and no, romance is NOT over-rated. I need to be told that I am valuable to someone. I love to feel needed and wanted. I am on the fringe of this relationship and I am not liking it very much. I recently lost 12 pounds (I know not a lot) and all he said was,"You're losing your butt." Ummm... he always told me in the past that my butt was his favorite part of my anatomy. I guess I can't do anything right in this relationship. Oh well. Yet again it is all my fault. I mean about everything in the whole universe. If it rains outside, that is my fault too. He promised me that we would be in love and together forever. Looks like forever isn't that long after all.... I feel sad today, but tomorrow is yet another day~~~

Oh, I can't tell you how happy I am to be free from work this week!!!

Friday should be a sacred day. It was unbearable this week with my favorite co-worker gone. I am going to give her a welcome party when she gets back. I hope she never ever takes any days off ever again!!!
Ok, I was posed in a much forwarded e-mail today these following questions...

Boxers or briefs... Um neither, I'm a girl
Red or blue... Neither, I am not in the Bloods or the Cripts
Tall or short... My height, I want to look them straight in the eye
Cheesecake or daquari's... Um.. that's a no brainer, both!
Hot weather or cold... the hotter the better
Beer or wine... beer (Michelob Ultra is my brew of choice)
Movies or a good book... good book without question
Sports or a couch... Sports
With or without clothes... Without
Missionary or doggie... Doggie
23 Hour days or 25 hour days... definately 25
Sportscar or SUV... I prefer a sportscar (but I do drive an SUV)
Parents, a pain in the butt or fun to have around... Fun to have around
The beach or the mountains... Mountains (with this figure, please!)
Go-carts or motorcycles... Go-carts
Zoo or water park... Water park (again don't look at me in my bathing suit)
Double bed or king sized bed... depends who is with me
Bedroom toys... maybe...
one pillow or two... Two

There were a few more, but I thought that was kind of fun. Yes, now you all know a few "dirty little secrets" about the Mama. I hope that someone out there at least looks at this blog thing sometimes. But then again, I don't really care, I am writing this because I have it in me, not to impress anyone. Hope all is well out there is cyberspace.

Let me ask everyone one big fat question...

What is the big friggin deal with weed? Sure I smoked it when I was young and stupid. Didn't most of us? Well, here I am at 38 years old wondering WTF is wrong with my friends??? My best friend who really rubs me raw sometimes is a pot smoking fool!!! I mean she works for a prestigious law firm and you would never ever guess she is the biggest pothead in the earth, but she is. A woman I work with and am very fond of is too and she is 52!!! What is wrong with the world today? Is it just me? I don't mind the smell of it and I really don't mind when they are doing it.....but I really don't want to join them and they think I am the odd one?!?! I mean they pop Xanex like it's nothing. WTF is that? They have names of some pretty prominent people that do all that stuff too. I can't be bothered with screwing my life up like that. I like myself and I like my life most of the time. I wouldn't do anything to mess up all that I have. It is totally not worth it. Now don't get me wrong, I love to party, but to me partying is more about having one too many, stumbling over myself, passing out and throwing up the next day. Thank GOD I don't do that very much any more. Well, twice since I have had kids anyway. Pretty sad if you can count the times huh?
But seriously what is the big thing with weed? It costs an arm and a leg... I use my money for more productive things, like my kids!!! Then there is that one little thing about it being FRIGGIN illegal!!! HELLO PEOPLE I CAN NOT BE THE ONLY GEN-X-ER that is not in to it!!! Like I said, I really don't mind if that is their gig, have at it, Do it around me, I don't care. Just don't keep bugging me about it, it is not for me, I'm cool with y'all doing it. I really seriously thought it was just for teens and twenties, not the older generation. I guess I was wrong. That's ok. I live in my own little world, but that's ok, I am used to it. I am so nieve. Sad sorry truth that it is...

As I thought it was gonna be...
I was right, today was yet another looonnngggg day. I got home from work and here sits some sort of vacuum cleaner salesman, parked in front of my couch (thanks hun...) trying to sell us an $1800.00 vacuum. Um... NO!!! Lucky for me I had to take my daughter to cheerleading practice. I took my son along for good measure. I was freezing!!! I forgot my sweater (of course) and I am always cold. Yes everyone, I am from VT, one of the coldest states ever and I am the ONLY person that gets cold in Georgia. Go figure. The cheer coach is a flake but she is harmless. Kinda goofy, but means well. You all know the type. Well, the kids are hollering at me as I am typing this, they want me to tuck them in. I better do it, before I know it they won't want me to go near their rooms. G'night y'all. Sweet dreams~~~

Loooooonnngggggg Day at work today....
I swear it was 48 hours crammed in to one little work day. I got SO much work done today. I like days like this, but I am exhausted! My co-worker is leaving for a week and going to NYC, lucky her. She is the glue that holds our office together. I fear that something really bad might happen while she is gone. We have a contract to do a huge commercial closing, I mean a lot of millions!!! What are we going to do without her!!! AAAAAAA!!!!!!! *running around screaming* That is a LOT of money by anyone's standards. Their insurance is over $100,000. I can't fathom that!!! My meager wages can't compare. I mean I do ok and I don't need or want for anything. But come on! the common folk just can't think with that many zeros. Hope all is well with everyone out there in cyber space~~~but I am hitting the sheets really early tonight, tomorrow is going to be another really really long day!

Just another Sunday afternoon...
Here I sit just trying to relax after an exhausting weekend. My parents came up. My mom has lost 50+ pounds so I treated her to a shopping spree. She was so cute trying on all the clothes. Of course I got two pairs of shoes and two blouses and a pair of slacks for myself. I couldn't find the shoes that my daughter wanted nor could I find the bolero jacket, maybe next time. Well the hubby is trying to make up for being an ass. I don't blame him, he should. I have never ever been one of those women who pout and bitch and moan about things. I let everything roll off my back but on the inside I hurt. I will never let anyone see me sweat. Everyone thinks I am such a cool customer but in all reality I am a total marshmallow.

My boss piles up the work because he knows I am the only one capable to accomplish everything that he has set forth. But on the inside I worry if I can get everything done in a timely manner. Of course I always make it somehow. I feel like I need to take speed to get everything I want done, done. I can only wish for about 10 more hours in a day.

On a lighter note (aside from my workaholic self) I told y'all about a friend of mine who is a total doll? Yeah, a few posts back.... anyway I fear that I may be invading his space. We started e-mailing each other and I so enjoy that. I get a little silly sometimes and just write exactly what I think to him. I push the send button before I change my mind then I fear that I have said too much or that he may think that I am a total wack-job! I just know that I can tell him everything. I feel safe with him. He is one of the few people that I feel like I can be completely honest with. I am honest with my husband because you can't live without that whole trust thing. Lately I feel like I have to walk on eggshells in my own house (that blows!). Which of course keeps me from telling him things like when the school called me and told me that my son was up to no good...again... So I keep that from him to keep the peace in my home. It also gets about a week or two of my son's chores done without complaint. My husband is from Panama and our cultures clash at times. I only wish I had known when I was young and in love that love does NOT cure everything and you have to be really strong to rise above it. I have spent 14 years rising above it and now at 38 years old I feel like a failure because I am sick of being the only one to try to reach compramises. I take care of our house (he is a huge slob), take the majority of the responsibility with our children (although he is a great father) I am the person to take them to practices and appointments, the dinner maker, the lunch maker (yes they take a bag lunch), work a full time job, try to stretch the finances, do all the shopping, cooking, cleaning, etc... I am tired of having to do all the work. I want to relax and not have to work so hard all the time. He has no idea what I do and get done in the day. He totally has taken me for granted for years now. I will continue to rise above it for my children. They are the best thing that has ever happened to me. And to think I never wanted children. I always believed that I was far to selfish to give that much of myself. That is a laugh. Speaking of which I have been sitting here way to long and I have a ton of laundry to get to. ~~~Happy Sunday everyone~~~

Ok, I guess I am done being mad for the moment. Such is life. You know what they say, it's better to roll with the punches than to let them take you to the hospital.
I guess this whole blog thing is for me to vent, bitch, complain and brag. Not to mention, just be myself. I tend to wonder if people even really read these things. I love reading other blogs, even if I have no idea who these people are. Hence the feeling of being a voyer. I haven't shared this space with my family because I need someplace to vent about them. I love them but... If I could have coriagraphed my life differently, I really would have. Kind of one of those "If I knew then what I know now" kind of things.

I am glad I have the kids I have though.
They are pretty cool as far as kids go. The kid on the motorbike is my son, he is a tough sweet fun guy. The kid on the go-cart is my daughter. As I have said before, she is my little sweetheart.

Hey everyone, I am here to tell you that I am so OVER my husband. Can he be more annoying? I mean really REALLY annoying. I have been under the weather for about 2 days now. Yeah I know big whoop! But I get up this morning and he has the new on, no big deal right? Well it was about the war in Iraq again. I am so over the war. I want all the soldiers to just come home and be safe. Let all those people over there kill themselves. We had our civil war, let them have theirs. Anyway I said something to that effect and he went off on me. Screaming and hollering (which is very out of character for him). How dare he! It is my house and I can say what I feel. If I had the money, I would get a hotel for the weekend and let him think about things. The only problem is... my parents are coming in today, ugh!

Oh and to top it all off, he painted the kitchen while I was at work yesterday. Which is great and it looks good. But the whole house is in disarray, *heavy sigh*. More cleaning for me to do.

On the lighter side, I have the weekend coming up and I am so looking forward to hanging out with my mother. She is so sweet and very cool. I can talk to her about everything. Well, I am at work yet again so I better get to it...

Well, try as I might... I tried to log in here all last night but to no avail. I was stuck reading other blogs and wishing beyond wish that I could get in here to post something. Well, it never happened and all the stuff I wanted to say just floated out of my head when I was sleeping.
This weekend I took my daugher to the mall. She is so cool. She is almost 10 and such a fashionista! I bought her a new outfit and some makeup. She splurged and bought some jewelry. This weekend we are going to buy her some new shoes and a bolero jacket to go with the outfit. I wish I had that much fashion sense. I tried on an outfit and she told me in no uncertain terms that I looked as wide as a bus in it. Yesterday morning she apologized for offending me. (three days later???) She said that she had been thinking about what she said and was bummed that she hurt my feelings. I told her that it was better that she tell me that the outfit wasn't working for me instead of me buying it thinking I looked good and didn't. She is getting all "E"s on her report card. I couldn't be more proud. She also became one of the support girls on her cheerleading squad. That is cool in and of itself because she is in the 4th grade and the girl who is on her back is a 6th grader. They are about the same size. She is tall like her mother except she is better looking. I'll post pics soon. As you can see I am a proud mom.
My son is just as awesome just in a totally different way. I'll write more about him when I get a few.
I need to also hook y'all up on the scoop about my husband. I ranted and raved about him in a recent post, I will not retract anything but I will have to write all the reasons why I love him. I just know there are reasons why I love him. Probably the little things. You know that they (the little things) mean a LOT.
Well, I am at work and I really have to do something so I can get a paycheck. Although I would rather be here writing my heart out. I have GOT to get to work already.

Well here I go again. I have a feeling I am going to get really addicted to this. I feel like I can really let it all hang out. Well, not like that but...

This summer 2005 I had my high school class reunion. What a great time had by all. Unfortunately I missed it ALL OF IT!!! I am from Vermont but I live in Georgia. I was just coming in to the country from Panama (where my hubby is from) and "thar she blows" when we landed, Hurricane Dennis was there to greet us. YAY! Needless to say I missed my reunion. There were people there that I grew up with and went all the way through school with. A few of us were even born on the same day. I think that is really cool. It was nice to see pictures of everyone. Some people I never cared for (and it was good to see them looking awful) and some I care for very much. I have e-mailed several people from the contact list. Fortunately all but one has e-mailed back. That makes me feel good. The dog that didn't e-mail me back has lived about 1/2 an hour away for years and I never knew it.
A person that I was very close to (near the end of high school) and still think very highly of, is going through a rough spot in his life right now. I am so glad I found him after all these years. I wish I could make all the rough spots in his life just go away. I wish I could make all his hurt go away. He is very smart, successful, sweet, funny and good looking to top it off. He deserves to be treated so well and it really hurts to see him having to go through things that he need not go though. I think he knows that I will always be here for him and he won't have to worry about anything but being himself with me.

Man he must have been the one that got away... BACK TO REALITY!!! *damn!!!*

Yes, I am still married and have the two kids. (heck, I only blogged that yesterday). I love my husband, as much of a pain in the butt as he is!!! He makes simple things in to projects. He cuts corners and makes big projects cheap and unrecognizable. He is a contradiction in terms. He is really smart but has absolutely NO common sense. He doesn't cheat on me. He doesn't drink or smoke or do drugs. He is a great father. I mean he really spends a lot of time (quality time) with our kids. He has always made sure we had money which is a definate plus. But here I sit feeling like I have to admit....he is boring!!! Sometimes I just want to cut loose and just let my hair down and go wild. In the 14 years that we have been together I have seen him tipsy twice and drunk only once. I know drinking isn't all there is to it, but come on already. I love to dance and meet people. Socializing should be something you get paid to do. He can't stand when I strike up a conversation with just anyone. To me it makes the world a much smaller place. To him, I am a weirdo. Oh well. What can I do. I can't leave, he is a great guy. I mean people would kill to have a husband like mine. I am just bored silly!!! I want adventure and excitement. Silly fun, is that so much to ask???

Well, it looks like I am finally going to pop my cherry here and now... NO! By that I mean I am going to finally write something down, read it a few times. Realize that I really can't spell. Rewrite everything a dozen times. Give up and just leave it here anyway.

What is so great about this blog thing anyway? I kind of look at it like some sort of kinky voyeristic kind of thing. Like I am probably going to use this as a diary of sorts. Which of course means that I am probably going to write things that I won't even share with my husband. Just so the whole world can see what I am all about. Kinda kinky if you ask me.

I am actually going to have to think of things to fill this space, like my innermost thoughts, stories about the kids (I have a boy and girl), funny things that just make me think,"wow people really ARE stupid" or just plain old boring tales of my dreary life as a legal secretary. Talk about boring. Let me tell you!!! It is all real estate law, talk about dry!!! Let me get out of here so I can hit the sheets at a decent hour for once.