Today my son is 15!

Can you all wrap your head around it? I can't!
I haven't seen him since Saturday. He went to spend the night at his friend's house Saturday night for the friend's birthday then they went to Six Flags Atlanta yesterday all day. They got home really late last night and he is still with them. I am going to pick him up this afternoon and give him 15 spanks and a pinch to grow and inch, well, he is 5'10" already... He is my heart.
So Happy Birthday Lovie you are growing up in to a fine young man.
I love you.

MY THOUGHTS ARE WITH YOU...


A friend of mine's mom passed on Monday. I didn't hear about it until today. We have known each other since we were children. They lived in New York City. We were not close but I always thought her parents were bigger than life. They had such a presence when they came in to a room. My whole life I have always thought that she (my friend) was probably the prettiest person on the whole earth. Just know that I am thinking about your mom and I am sending strength your way.
The world has lost an awesome, beautiful & strong woman.

*please click on the highlighted links this woman was amazing*

Happy Father's Day!


To all you wonderful fathers out there, I commend you. Being a good father and provider is a very hard job.
I know because I watch my husband excel at that every single day. I watch how hard it is to balance the love and discipline. He does a great job at dividing his time between work, home, both children equally, me and his own time. I taught him how important it was to keep a part of himself to keep his sanity with his own time. That is very important to me. He works out almost daily and I think that helps him not to lose his identity, you know the thing that made me fall in love with him to begin with. He never complains about anything. I know sometimes I expect more than he can give, but he gives anyway. I have always supported him with my whole heart and I always will. I feel like I am so lucky and blessed that he is the love of my life and the father of my children.
My own father is the best father ever, I can say that because he is mine and I love him.
To all you fathers out there, married or not remember that those children are our next generation. They are the adults of our future and they deserve the best start. These babies/children/teens/young adults deserve the best advantages you can provide and facilitate. They need you. They need you to believe that they can do everything and anything. The love of strong parents can not be replaced.
To all you single moms out there that are doing the work of both parents I commend you. Keep up the good work and keep fighting that good fight for those children.
To all the same sex couples, male or female I commend you as well. Keep being there for those kids and never give up on them or each other.
Father's Day is a day to celebrate fathers and their contribution to the making and raising your babies. To the fathers who are there and stepping up to their responsibilities, you are so very awesome and I commend you and to you deadbeat absentee fathers
FUCK YOU!

TGIF....

Can I just say that? THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!
This week has been no fun. It started out with a bang and has gone downhill from there. I have been carpooling with the hubby all week. He has to be to work at 7:30 and I don't have to be to work till 9:00 so needless to say I have been getting to work WAY too early every day. We both get out at 4:00 so that's good except he is late every day picking me up. Oh well, I should be thankful we have at least one car that runs. We have 4 cars and mine is the only one working, go figure. Work itself has been kinda rough this week but I am somehow managing to get through it. When I went to bed last night I was having some chest pains. That is never good. Blood pressure was a little elevated but over all everything was fine. It still hurts a little this morning. You know how it feels when you get hit really hard and you are going to get a bruise? That is exactly what it feels like. If it continues, I will get it seen later.
We are going to the Latin Festival on River Street this weekend, that should be a lot of fun.
I hope this weekend totally ROCKS! and I hope everyone out there has a great one!

I am sad for a good friend of mine today...


There was an accident.
It killed a mother, a son and his girlfriend.
My dear friend is her best friend. I can't console my friend and it hurts me for her. This woman was her rock and her lifeline. She was everything to her. She picked her up and dusted her off after her divorce. She has pulled her out of depression a few times and was always willing to do anything it took to make my friend's life as full as possible. My friend is getting ready to move and this woman was landscaping and painting, anything that needed to be done was getting done. Her son was a mentor and a father figure for my friend's son (who is 13). He is devastated. Not only did he lose a woman who was like another mother but his "big brother" as well. I didn't realize it until it was brought to my attention, but I also know the mother of the girlfriend that was killed.
So tragic.
So sudden.
You will be missed.
I wish there was something I could do.

TGIM...
(thank God it's Monday)


Well it was a good weekend and the incident from the other day has blown over and thankfully all is well. Yesterday we cleaned, cleaned and cleaned some more. I just couldn't wait to come to work to relax. But I have to say I stayed up way too late both nights this weekend and last night I had a hard time going to sleep. *sheesh* Just what I need, MORE problems sleeping?!?!
My daughter had a friend stay over last night and I really like this friend. Poor kid didn't like what I served for dinner and I offered to make her something else or she could have had cereal (an offer my own kid NEVER get) but she was a trooper and ate the whole thing. Her parents raised her right. I don't have much food in the house because I didn't go shopping this weekend so I hope they can fend for themselves today.
So, Happy Monday everyone!!!

Friday is Better than Humpday!


I am almost out of here for the weekend. I am tired and more than ready to just not think. The kids had friends sleep over last night. That's a good thing right? Well until the power went out around 8:30. What on earth were they going to do without their computers and video games? They played silly kid games like we used to play when we were kids. They all piled in to my son's room and talked and laughed by candlelight. It was a good time....um.... until I found out today that they all ended up sleeping in there. That is SO not cool! I am glad they enjoyed each others company and they had fun.... but I could not stay up all night and supervise them. Now I feel guilty that I was tired and went to bed. What will their parents think? I know if my child was at another person's house and that happened, I would be MORTIFIED!
Hell, I AM mortified!
Now what should I do? I know, breathing is a good thing to continue to do, but what do I say? I know nothing happened, Oh GOD I HOPE nothing happened.
UGH! HELP!!!

Yep, it's Thursday...


Only one more day till Friday. So soon yet so far away.
I have so much work but I am feeling lazy and useless today. Maybe tomorrow will be better. I should have a great attitude, I still have a job and life is good. Wish me luck that I keep my *ADD in check...

*I don't really know if (or think) I have ADD, but my son does and I fully feel like he must feel most days. I can not keep a straight thought on ANYTHING today.*

Happy Birthday my Angel...


Today I celebrate the birth of one of the few wonderful people in my world that made me who I am today. He made me see that having children was a actually a good thing. He always showed the wide eyed hope of a wonderful future. He was a very affectionate person, always ready with a hug and a great big smile. When he was a baby he demanded hugs and kisses all the time. I miss him every day, my heart aches with the pain only a true loved one can feel.
I wish I could do something anything to get him back. But I do know without a doubt that he is his son's guardian angel.The world is a better place just because you were in it.
Rest in Peace my love, Happy Birthday and I hope you have always known just how loved you truly are.

Random Ponderings...

I swear I am turning into a weekly blogger *sigh* I don't want to be one of those! I want to be full of tons of things to talk about. I want to be interesting.

I am really having fun reading about my friend's lives on Facebook. Sadly I don't have much to share there either.

I took a break from the Sims and this weekend I played for a few hours. It was awesome, I forgot how much I liked playing.

Sad things happened in my nieces world this weekend, please keep her, her friend and their families in your prayers.

I found out that one of my dearest friends just got engaged and I am SO very happy for them!!!

I have been on oxygen at night for about a month now. I am used to it (in fact I am wearing it right now) and now when I sleep without it I feel like shit. I actually look forward to "hooking up".

Take care my friends and I hope I post more than once this week...

HAD COMPANY THIS WEEKEND...

Oh and today is my birthday, I am 38 again...
Yay me.