NOT MUCH TO SEE HERE FOLKS....
Slower traffic to the right, reserve the left lane for passing only....
Today had to be the s-l-o-w-e-s-t day on earth today.
The boss is out for a couple of days (which is an act of Congress with him). So of course being the busy little bees that we are, we have really come together to make the office purrrrr like a kitten. It is so much easier when he isn't there interrupting our flow. He is an awesome man and an excellent employer. I really look up to him a lot. I have a tremendous amount of respect for him. BUT it is nice when he is gone for a few days. We have a young 27 year old attorney that takes over his affairs when he is gone. He is like an obnoxious sweet little brother type. Love him to death. But it is not JB the big bossman. Well.... unfortunately two problems arose today and they are BIG HUGE problems that are so far out of my league that I cannot fathom the impact when all is said and done. Wish us luck and keep your fingers crossed. Wow, I am asking for a lot of that these days. Come Friday afternoon, the boss will be back, he can solve any problems, my house will be sold and I will be walking away with a HUGE check in my pocket. I am excited. I am thinking about going in to work tomorrow morning and taking off for the afternoon. Maybe go to the bookstore, grab a book off the shelf and curl up in one of their many comfy chairs until my kids get out of camp. Of course I know me and I know that my work ethics have a problem taking off for no reason. There is ALWAYS work to be done.
On another note... I have been having chest pains today. I think it is a little bit of anxiety (due to the BIG HUGE problems that have just come up). I am hoping it only gas....
I wear my heart on my sleeve, always have and I guess I always will. Anytime I feel hurt, scared, overwhelmed, sad, happy, nervous, etc... it shows. I can't help it. So after internalizing these feelings of failure at these BIG HUGE problems, my body is mad at me.
I also can't lie and trust me I have tried, I just really suck at it. Then I realized that is so not worth it. Everyone knows exactly how I feel about them, good bad or indifferent. Either I love you and want to spend more time with you, I don't care for you and am only civil to you because that is the right way to be.... or I don't care one way or the other for you. It's not that I don't like you, I don't know you and you don't know me. We haven't taken the time to get to know each other. My mother has always said that I have never met a stranger. That everyone out there is just a friend I haven't had the pleasure of meeting yet.
Yeah, I am reserved yet outgoing. Go figure that one out. I am a Gemini after all....... I love to listen to what other people have to say. I also love to be the one in the middle of the circle doing my standup routine.
OMG! I am SO rambling on over here, I need to stop that! I noticed that my last post got a lot of positive response, thank you everyone. YOU RULE!!!
posted by Big Mama at 7:13 PM
5 Comments:
Slow days are the hardest days I believe. I like to stay busy and stretch my brain a bit when I am at work, time goes faster that way doesn't it?
Wearing your heart on your sleeve can be dangerous, yess maam. I know I do it and I can suffer from it at times too. None more than a lady in a book I read last year before my operation. It is titled, "An Arrow Through The Heart", by Deborah Daw Heffernan. An American lady just like yourself who discovers in YOGA of all places that her aorta decided to dissect from her heart right on a particular "opening of the vessels" manouvre in class...right there! Works out she is usualy fit and just a busy lady with no time for herself yet alot for other people. Go check it, it is a great story of determination and finding self on the road to recovery :)
I will, that sounds like a good book...
Reminds me , I must get it back of my friends I leant it to over a year ago!
Let me just say one thing regarding your anxiety…BREATHE. And also, take a Reiki session----it totally helps! I know how you feel. And when you “lie”, you actually give yourself anxiety----so I think it’s great that you literally can’t lie. That means the anxiety itself scares you to do this. I think it’s an awesome quality in someone when they can’t lie. I think lie detectors go by the stress in someone’s response.
If you have chest pains, don’t play it off like my mutha and think it’s gas. If your chest feels heavy and you seriously think something is wrong, please go to the ER or doctor’s office right away. Most likely it is stress ‘cause you have been going through a lot lately.
Breathe in…….breathe out…….breathe in………breathe out…….meditate….pray and just ‘be still’. I hope you feel better.
Now take advantage of that boss being away and get your arse up to NY so we can drink CP under the table!
Are you kidding, all y'all could drink me under the table in one drink, LOL!!! I am such NOT a drinker, LOL! My chest is feeling better, but I am making an appointment for next week...
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