CONCLUSION

Well I got home from work yesterday and proceeded to paddle the Little Man with the wooden paddle. It made me feel like crap but I felt that I was left with little choice. We talked about everything. I stressed the importance of going to school and (per Cher's advice) reminded him that school is such a small part of his world. I stressed that I would be making more money had I paid more attention in school. That I could be the attorney instead of working for them. I then hugged and cried with him. When his father came home I made him tell his father. He freaked out (as I anticipated) but we still didn't tell him about the porn incident. I also went to the local YMCA and enrolled him in the aftercare program to keep him out of trouble. I took my daughter with me so I wouldn't have to go alone. I asked her if I were doing the right thing and she informed me that it was the best thing I could do for him. I asked her if she were 11 wouldn't she want to have the freedom of 1 1/2 hours alone without parents and she said,"are you crazy? Being alone for a kid is really scarey. I would totally hate that." So out of the mouth of my babe came the wisdom that I needed to hear. Little Man doesn't like being alone but didn't know how to tell us to take care of it. After I got back I talked with him again and he confirmed that his sister was right.

I swear pretty soon I will get the hang of this mama thing... Thank you all my friends out there for the support you freely bestow upon me. Sometimes I need either a slap back to reality or reaffirmation that what I am doing is the right thing. Either way I win...