I'm Sorry...

Yesterday was Jaevian's 2nd birthday, I failed calling him and I failed posting about him.

Milestones are always hard when you lose a loved one. I know that I should focus on the living because that is/was the way my nephew always thought about things. I did send a big box of goodies for his birthday so at least I didn't fail him there. I have yet to meet this little boy that I love so much. My nephew meant the world to me and I know he loved me very much.

He has always been "my boy".

We used to IM each other every couple of weeks.

I miss that.

I miss him.

I have yet to travel to Canada to meet his wife and son.

I have yet to hold his mother and let her know that I share her pain.

I have yet to see his grave.

For that Luis-Fer I am so very sorry.

R.I.P. I love you.